So it be learned...

All of these girls,
they pose infront of mirrors,
revealing clothes are being worn
they're trying to get the guys

they're being teenagers, caring about booze and not getting caught,
of sex and boys
of drugs and appearance.

what if this isn't how it's supposed to be?
there are things bigger then us, and those things are what we should be worrying about

if everyone cared not so much about the competition - being better then everyone else - we could accomplish something in this world, perhaps ending poverty and hunger, war and crimes.
there would be more time to deal with world issues, not everyone would be in their own world

i'm a hypocrit of myself, todays the first day ive really eaten in three days.
i hit 158. lowest weight ever.
sigh
problem is this isn't for the appearance anymore, it's because i dont WANT to eat,
theres a difference. this is psychological.


I'm tired of being the fat girl
the one that doesnt fit in,
i'm going to be the fat girl, and i'm going to fit in in my own group.
the one i make
by myself

and i've never felt so alone, but i've also never felt like there were this many possibilities.
I can go anywhere i want, i just have to hop on a bus
i can talk to just about anyone, all i have to do is send a message
i can inspire others, all i have to do is make them listen to me
i can get attention , all i have to do is stop trying to gain it

let's live this life,
let's do what i want
i'm never going to get a second chance

i'll do my hair because i want to, colour it how i'd like it
cut it in my style, shape it how i want it
talk to who i want to, and move away from those i dont like
eat when i choose i want to, not when society tells me to

here's to the breaking of social norms (y)